Sooo...

Apparently, it's going to take a little more motivation to get myself to write everyday. I often think of things to post, but then just don't bother. I will work on this.

It has been snowing for the last 9 hours and doesn't seem like it will stop anytime soon. We are expected to get between 4 and 6 inches. I'm not sure how many we already have, but it is pretty to watch. Not so pretty to stumble through, though. I had to go to Pilates this morning. Luckily, I don't live far from the Metro and the Pilates studio isn't too far from the Dupont Metro. Still felt like forever though. I can deal with snow ok, but it is also super cold. I was very happy to make it back to my very warm apartment. I haven't been back out. I may run to CVS (hopefully it's open), but luckily, I have a lot of toilet paper and soy/almond/rice milk to tide me over. Ha. I did see several people carrying plastic CVS bags with toilet paper earlier today. Totally fit the stereotype of how DC residents react to snow. It was also the most plastic bags I've seen since the District implemented the 5 cent bag fee. Wonder if people were doing unplanned shopping or if it's normal for a Saturday. On a side note about the bag fee, I never thought saving a nickel would motivate me to do just about anything, but I have been much better about bringing my own bags since it went into effect. I was usually good before, but I often got sucked into the grocery store between the Metro and my apartment and rarely had bags with me. Now, I carry my grocery bags to work if I plan on shopping after, or I usually have an extra plastic bag from my lunch to reuse if I have to pick-up a couple things. I think I'm more motivated by the signal sent by the bag fee (plastic bags are bad for the river), than by the actual bag fee.

Anyway, I have been productive today. I did some dishes, but I have spent most of the day sorting through my clothes and packing up clothes to take to Goodwill tomorrow. I cannot believe how much clothing I have. I don't even know how I accumulated that much stuff. I got rid of almost everything when I lost weight, so that means most of the clothes have appeared in the last 3 years- not counting most of my Betsey Johnson dresses. I've never been able to get rid of those. But I think I am going to try to sell a couple of them on eBay. One I wore for my college graduation dinner and is way too big for me. I had originally planned to have it altered, but I realize that I do not know when I would wear a multi-colored pastel party dress. Another dress I wore to my high school band banquet senior year. It is tight and tiny, and I'm not sure how I ever fit in it. Even when I get to my goal weight, I do not think it would work for me. If they don't sell, then I'll donate them, but they were expensive dresses and worn once each, so I figure it's worth trying to make a few dollars. Maybe I'll donate the money.

I need to get back to putting away the clothes I want to keep- which is still an insanely high pile of stuff- but I'm a little unmotivated. Perhaps now is the time to run to CVS. I will get the clothes put away before I make my big salad, have a glass of wine, and watch Arrested Development or some sort of movie. Lovely Saturday night.

Asking questions

I'm feeling a little blah this morning. The past few days I've gotten a bit off track. Not in that I've been really eating poorly or going back on my cooking plans, but rather not being as mindful as I should. I could feel a difference in my body this morning. It was a somewhat unpleasant reminder that 2 weeks of doing well is not enough, that I need to think about it every time I eat or whenever I decide not to do some sort of exercise. I need to ask myself "How will this make you feel?" or "How will this impact your goals?". I think these questions are a good way to quickly adjust my head when I start to feel like I'm losing my focus. Also, writing on this thing does help, especially when I describe the things I've eaten and the work I put into them. It's a good accountability tool so I am going to work to put in one entry a day. I eat everyday. I am in my apartment thinking about cleaning everyday. May as well write about it.

Happy Friday!

It's Friday afternoon, and I have a break from my phone ringing and since I hadn't posted in a week, I thought I'd post some more thoughts.

This week has been fair. Work has been busy, and I have been a bit crabby with people. As I've lamented many times, when I have to be very nice to a lot of people over a short amount of time, I lose my other abilities to function socially. I am short with people. I can't really complete sentences, and I lack attention span. If I had cramps, it would be like being on my period. Luckily, these reporting periods only last a couple of weeks every quarter, and will eventually end completely. Until then, I just hope that I get to speak to IT guy at least once a day. He makes me smile, even if he flirts with everyone. It's kind of hard to get tired of hearing a cute guy say "I'm better now that I'm talking to you." I'm sure he says it to everyone, but I can pretend it's only me.

I have still been good about the cooking. It has become more routine to get home and make something or to pack lunch in the morning.

(Note: While writing the above sentence, IT guy called. It was lovely. We chatted about beer and other drinks, new DC bars/restaurants, and working out. I very much enjoyed the moment when I saw it was him on my caller ID and not another confused grantee).

I've pretty much decided to cook/eat vegan at home and then be less limited if I am eating out. I think this is a good way of both balancing the foods I eat and ensuring that I limit my intake of dairy and meat without too much difficulty. Also, I have felt better recently than I have in a long time, so I think that something is working for me. I figure I should continue with it until something changes.

I went to the gym yesterday and will go again today, but haven't been great about exercise this week. Part of the problem is just being tired. The other is that I got my new tattoo on Monday, and it is on my lower left ribs and a bit onto my stomach and is still a bit sore. When I use my abs to much, it hurts- even while dancing! It's doing better today, though I think that it will start itching soon. No fun, but the tattoo is beautiful, so it's ok. (I'll post some pictures when it has healed.)

My goals for the weekend are to grocery shop, cook, and go through my clothes. I'm hoping to book a zipcar so that I can donate my clothes right away. It would free up an incredible amount of space in my apartment. Also, I need to clean my kitchen.

I also plan on sleeping. A lot.