Asking questions

I'm feeling a little blah this morning. The past few days I've gotten a bit off track. Not in that I've been really eating poorly or going back on my cooking plans, but rather not being as mindful as I should. I could feel a difference in my body this morning. It was a somewhat unpleasant reminder that 2 weeks of doing well is not enough, that I need to think about it every time I eat or whenever I decide not to do some sort of exercise. I need to ask myself "How will this make you feel?" or "How will this impact your goals?". I think these questions are a good way to quickly adjust my head when I start to feel like I'm losing my focus. Also, writing on this thing does help, especially when I describe the things I've eaten and the work I put into them. It's a good accountability tool so I am going to work to put in one entry a day. I eat everyday. I am in my apartment thinking about cleaning everyday. May as well write about it.

Pin-Up Girl

(Note: Upon completing this post I realized that I used the words wicked, awesome, and rad in a matter of 3 paragraphs. You've been warned.)

I love pin-up pictures, especially ones that feature women that do not fit the traditional definition of beauty (tattoos, dreads, hips), so when I stumbled upon Atomic Cheesecake Studios, I was wicked excited. She is based in Baltimore (not too far away from DC) and takes awesome pictures, and all the packages include hair, make-up, and outfits. I've been thinking about doing it since the moment I came across the website (circa May 2008), but have put it off for a variety of reasons, mostly related to my weight. I figure if I'm going to spend the money on cool professional photographs I should look my best. Also, I wanted a few more tattoos for the photo.

I don't know what reminded me of the pictures today, but whatever it was gave me an excellent idea/goal: getting the pictures done will be my birthday (May 18) present to myself. (I may not be great at taking care of myself, but I do always get myself birthday and Christmas gifts). Appointments are only during weekdays, and I was planning on taking the Monday before my birthday off anyway, so I think it is perfect timing. This gives me about 4 months to get to a point where I am comfortable and happy with my body. I believe that is completely do-able. I mean that's like 4 pounds a month if you break it down that way. And if the "experts" say you should only lose 1-2lbs a week, then it is perfect.

I think having this goal will definitely help me with my resolution. Having something to work towards always makes things easier- especially when it is something totally rad.

Plus, I'll have another tattoo (or 2) by then :)